Gah, it's so nice having a premium membership on DeviantART again! I missed it something fierce.
So, not too much is new, but as I'm sure most of you have noticed, I haven't been ridiculously active on here other than with my sis,
. It's okay, though, because I'm finally getting better. Here's kind of an update on what's been going on in life:
Before Thanksgiving of last year, I moved out of my aunt's house and into my cousin's, because she needed a roommate and she was offering me a less stressful place to live at. We both worked at the same place, so it was convenient, and she has a kid, so it worked out for all of us. It was awesome, and we got along really well.
Then she got into a relationship.
Now, this wouldn't be so bad, except she started spending every waking moment with this guy, who we both happen to work with. I, unfortunately, belong to the same department as he does, whereas she did not. He has two kids, and they ended up over at our house more than I was comfortable with, but since she owned the house, I wasn't going to stop it. I mean, I wouldn't want someone telling me I couldn't hang out with my significant other if I had one, so I wasn't going to be that person. Keep in mind that this guy also tried hooking up with me before they were together (and he was still married). I have a conscience and couldn't be in a relationship with someone who was already in one (and he creeps me out, quite honestly).
But they got along, she was happy, and so I was happy.
Then my aunt decided to tell her that, while I was drunk, I told my aunt that it should have been my cousin's boyfriend and me instead of her and him.
This never happened, but my cousin decided to believe my aunt (who is known to be crazy and spiteful) over me (who has never lied to her a day in my life).
I got a text in May that told me that I had until the end of May to get my stuff out of the house and move, pay off my car, and get my insurance in my name (it was all in hers). I had no idea why, and she tried to blame it on the fact that I had "eaten two slices of pizza that weren't mine to eat." I later found out, from a mutual friend, that it was because of what my aunt had said. I still haven't brought it up to my aunt that I know what she had done, but it will happen one day.
I was part-time, working between 20-25 hours a week, twenty, with no insurance history in my name. I had little money, and very few friends here, most of which didn't have space to let me stay with them.
A miracle happened, though, and some friends I was still barely getting to know offered me a temporary place to stay, and that actually ended up being turned into a permanent offer. So, that's where I've been living since, and it's a much safer, more stable environment for me.
Things are starting to get better financially and stress-wise, but my health is not. I am Bi-Polar II, manic depressive, and have recently been suffering more with what I call "Twitches", which are actually spasms that cause my entire body to wrack one the brink of painful, making me lose control of every part of me. More recently I had one so horrible that I slammed my fist through a box in the middle of one, couldn't coherently respond to anyone immediately after, and then a couple of hours later had one so awful after eating that I fell to my knees during it, only to wrap up into a ball on the floor at work and break down crying, I was so scared. I've also recently discovered that there's a chance I might be Hypoglycemic, which I need to go to the doctor for sure on, and my mental state hasn't been the best, suffering with extremely depressive thoughts. Thankfully, the worst of the depression is slowly lifting, but now with the concerns over my health, I'm praying that everything will go well.
I'm getting a little better every day, though, and my roommates and sister are really helping to pull me out of most of my depression. I'm hoping it stays that way, but everyone has their low days. I'm also going to be joining Project Unbreakable on tumblr, so I'm hoping that helps heal some of my past. I'll be looking for a therapist soon, too. So much money.
But in other news, I got a great discount on some colored pencils at Hobby lobby today, so I'm genuinely excited about that. I was trying them out earlier and felt some of my spark return, so hopefully that becomes a permanent thing because I'd REALLY love to start drawing more again.
If you've stayed with the journal this long, I really appreciate it, haha. I hope you have a good day, and keep an eye out in your notifications, because hopefully I'm back for good! I missed you guys!
Also, I'll be moving most of my photography to my other account,
, if you're interested in following them still!
